tips for studying with depression

I have been suffering from depression for a long time now, I’ve survived high school and I’m trying to survive college right now. If you’re a student struggling with depression you know that it’s hard. Sometimes it even feels impossible. Today I’ve written down some tips, that help me study. I hope it will help you too.

BEFORE YOU START: CLEAN

Yes, you read that right. Before you start studying clean your room, do your laundry, do all the chores you’ve been meaning to do. Clean environment will make you feel good. Plus you won’t have to think about it for the rest of the day. I hate when I start studying, but all I can think about is all the chores I haven’t done yet.

NUMBER ONE: ORGANIZE

The first step is to plan what exactly you need to study for. Take a look in your diary and prioritize the exams. If the exam is hard, plan more days for studying. Don’t study at the last minute, the stress wil only worsen your depression. Then check your notes and materials. Be sure you have everything ready before you start studying. If you don’t have the notes ask a classmate.

NUMBER TWO: STUDYING

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Study for more exams at the same time. Instead of studying the same materials all day, change it up. For example study anatomy for 1 hour, then microbiology, then psychology, then anatomy again. The change of subjects is what keeps your brain from being tired and aphatetic which makes your depression worse.

NUMBER THREE: TAKE A BREAK

This one is super important. Break your studying into segments and after completing each segment, take a break. For example after you read 25 pages you watch one episode of your favourite Tv show (I’m obsessed with Buzffeed Unsolved right now, go check it out). Just take a break when you feel tired or overwhelmed. Listen to some music, read or take a nap.

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NUMBER FOUR: DON’T CARE ABOUT THE GRADES

This only works If you’re not a scholarship student. This is especially easy for me to say because college is free in my county. If you’re not a scholarship student then I suggest to stop caring about the grades. As long as you pass the exam you are fine. Don’t feel pressured to have great grades. As soon as you stop caring about it, you won’t feel so guilty about a bad grade.

NUMBER FIVE: IT’S OKAY TO GIVE UP

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I’m in the middle of my finals right now. I still have three exams and couple of hospital training days left before the end of the semester. This month has been crazy, last week I had five exams and so far this week I had two. Today I was supposed to have anatomy exam, the hardest subject of the semester. I had three days to study, but I didn’t. The thing is I know I would have been able to pull it off. I just didn’t want to. I decided to look out for my mental health fo once and not do it. When you feel like you just cannot do it, then don’t. I’m writing this in my experience with my country’s education system. Here, we have three tries for one exam before we have to re- take the semester. If you have similar opportunities, take them. You don’t need to complete everything on your first try.

NUMBER SIX: YOU’RE DOING GREAT

Don’t compare yourself to other students. Remember that depression is a bitch and makes everything 100 times harder. If others have no problems with the exams it’s because they are healthy. Remember you are strong! You can do this!

It’s Always Sunny In Philadelphia – why it’s perfect

Hello everyone how are you doing? I’m fine, mostly. School is keeping me busy, but I’m hoping to get back into my writing routine soon.

Anyways,  this is the first post of my TV show recommendations series. I love watching tv. I watch Tv shows everyday. I hate silence, because I hate being left alone with my own thoughts ( I mean, who does, right? ), so I often fill the silence with The Simpsons reruns or some other show. I wanted to start this series with the best sitcom ever created and believe me, I don’t take that lightly. I thought long and hard about it and came to conclusion that Sunny is the best one. Ever.

My journey with Sunny is split into three parts. When I first discovered it I liked it. I watched a couple of episodes, but made the mistake of not watching them chronologically and just randomly picking through them, leading me to miss the great ones. Those I watched were good, the series just hadn’t impressed me enough to watch them all. Boy was I wrong.

Couple of months later I was bored and decided to give Sunny a second chance. That’s when I fell in love with it. Couple of days ago, I re- discovered the series again and confirmed, that Sunny is the best and funniest Tv show ever. That is of course only subjective opinion, but I will attempt to explain, why I love it so much and hopefully you’ll give it a try as well.

It’s always sunny in Philadelphia follows four (five If you count Frank) friends living and owning a bar in Philadelphia. The gang consists of Charlie, Mac, Dennis, Dee and Frankn(played by the brilliant Danny DeVito). They are horrible, horrible people. They are alcoholics, ignorant, offensive, rude, sociopathic (especially Dennis) and painfully, painfully dumb.

It’s important to say, that Sunny is completely different from shows like Family Guy (a show that  I hate). Family Guy has a lot of horrible characters, unlike Sunny however the show is offensive just for the sake of it. Characters in MacFarlane’s show are laughing at the horrible things, they know it’s bad, but they also thing things like rape are hilarious. They’re like the most obnoxious, offensive guy you know, who defends himself with a line “i’s just a joke” after saying something offensive and horrible.

The characters on Sunny however do horrible things, but they don’t know it’s horrible, they are so stupid and egoistic, that they think everything they do is great and right. Sunny has also ruined me for other Tv shows, because the character are so complex. You know them, but you also don’ really know what they’re going to do next or how they’re going to act. I’ve never seen characters so real and well- written. The dialogue is also perfect. That is what drives the show. It is so real and natural. This exchange between Mac and Dennis is one of the funniest of the show.

The gang often finds themselves in absurd situations. Usually the situation starts normally, but the gang always respond to it in an over the top fashion, and the situation escalates pretty quickly. For example: reading about an exposition in a local museum and ending up getting trapped inside someone’s house trying to steal an expensive vase. Playing a board game and ending up locked in the basement. Getting a bad review and ending up kidnaping the writer, his neighbour and his cat. And so on. Seriously every episode of Sunny is a gift.

That being said it is not a show for everyone. Before you start watching it you have to release yourself from the usual sitcom concept. This is not an emotional show. This is not a show about friendship. Don’t expect anything like Friends or Parks and rec. definitely not. If I had to compare it to some more “traditional” sitcom I would say Community, but that is still far too emotional compared to Sunny. If you do decide to watch it (and seriously, you should, it’s brilliant) try to keep an open mind. Maybe you won’t  like it so much at first, but after few episodes it will grow on you.

As your first episode I would recommend season 7 episode 7 CharDee MacDennis: A game of games. It is one of the greatest Sunny episodes ever created, you don’t really have to know anything what previously happened on the show. This episode also shows the character’s dynamic and chemistry together.

Some of my favourite episodes:

  • CharDee MacDennis: Electric Boogaloo – kind of a sequel to the episode I just mentioned
  • The Nightman Cometh – A classic. Charlie writes a musical. Really, there’s nothing more to add. It’s great.
  • The Gang Gets Trapped
  • Frank’s Pretty Woman
  • Sweet Dee Has A Heart Attack
  • Who Pooped The Bed
  • The Dennis System

So what makes Sunny so good. The characters, the writing, the absurd storylines, the amazing and talented cast are the main reasons, there is however something else. See , what Sunny does so well is satire. something that is missing from today’s culture. Tv is full of parody, but satire is missing. Sunny is pushing the boundaries, it is discussing topics other shows would not dare. It is making fun not of pop-culture but of society as a whole. That’s why it’s so different and that’s why I like it so much.

Please go watch Sunny, It’s great, I promise.

soundtrack to my teenage years

Yesterday I was driving home and heard Simple Plan song on the radio. That made me feel sentimental and remember when I heard it for the first time. I went down the memory lane to my angsty teenage years and listened to couple of other songs. I though it would be fun to share with you gyus!

SIMPLE PLAN – WELCOME TO MY LIFE

Oh god, this is a great one. I always felt so rebellious listening to this track. I’ve been listening to it on repeat all morning, singing and feeling like a rebel again.

FALL OUT BOY – I DON’T CARE

My 12-year-old emo self is so happy right now. The song is just perfect I still listen to it to this day. The video is so cool. There was nothing  cooler to me than this band, this song and this video.

LADY GAGA – MONSTER

Seriously any of the songs from her first three albums could be here. They are all great and I used to listen to them constantly. Monster is a less known song I always loved along with So Happy I Could Die and Dance In The Dark.

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MCU Movies Ranked from Worst to Best

For a long time I wondered if I should write an individual review for each film, but then I decided against it. Everyone at this point has done that. So instead of me analyzing each film I thought I could make a list and rank them. Please note that this list is based on my opinions only. Feel free to comment if you disagree with me, I would love to hear your opinions. The only film that won’t be ranked is Guardians Of The Galaxy vol. 2 since I have not seen it yet.

The ones I Don’t Like

Those are the films I just cannot stand for one reason or another.

The Incredible Hulk

This movie is just boring from start to finish. We get the origin story in the first few minutes through opening titles. After that we follow Bruce Banner as he runs from the government. I love Ed Norton, but his performance here is underwhelming. There is no connection to the character for me. When we first see Elizabeth with another man I know I should care, I should be sad, angry and feel sorry for Bruce, but the movie didn’t do anything to make me care about their relationship. Little montage at the beginning of the movie simply won’t do. The Hulk looks ugly, every time he’s on-screen the movie gets somehow more boring and I always get a headache while watching it. I really, really hate this movie.

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Guardians of the Galaxy

I know, this movie is usually at the top of everyone’s list and I know why. The movie is good, the performances are great, it is funny, the visuals are amazing, but I still don’t like it. It is a mystery for me, because it has all the things I love: set in space, Chris Pratt, humor, action, superheroes. I just don’t like it. I’ve seen it twice, each time it was really difficult to get through to the end. I didn’t connect to any of the characters and by the time Groot sacrificed himself at the end I simply didn’t care. Unlike Incredible Hulk this movie is good I just can’t get into it.

Iron Man 3

You know it’s funny that two Iron Man movies are in this category, Iron Man being my favourite MCU superhero. This movie is just pointless. If you watch all of the MCU movies and skip this one, nothing will happen. Tony deals with PTSD, that is the only interesting part of the movie. RDJ’s performance is perfect as always and the highlight of the movie. So Tony decides to quit being a superhero and destroys all of his suits. Except he doesn’t, he’s right back saving lives in the next Avengers. The movie changed nothing. The action without the suit is okay, but doesn’t stand out. Pepper is annoying as fuck and we see her again in Spider – Man: Homecoming, so clearly their relationship wasn’t really damaged. Tony says they are on a break in Civil War, but couple of months later they’re back together again. I am so angry with this movie, because if done right it would be a major break for the character. Instead it fell flat.

Iron Man 2

This one is between the two categories as I genuinely enjoy parts of this movie, but absolutely can’t stand some. This movie is not as bad as some people say. It has some great moments in it like: Tony suiting up at the race track, Fury and Romanoff interference at the diner and Tony watching his father’s tape. This movie helped us to understand Tony’s relationship with his father as well as his desire to help others and be a better man. But then in the same movie Tony invents a new element by using lasers. I’m sorry, no amount of explanation will ever validate this. It is stupid and it takes me right out of the movie every time. Pepper is annoying, again. The villan is laughable, Justin Hammer is just pathetic. although I am a fan of Don Cheadle as Rhodes there’s something annoying about him in this one.

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The ones I Like

Thor: The Dark World

I don’t understand the hate for both Thor movies. I mean, they are not perfect, but they’re also not so bad as everyone would have you believe. Yes the villain  is bad, the worst in the MCU. If you look past that The Dark World has so much more to offer. We explore Thor’s relationship with his parents and his brother. The scene with Loki dying is one of the best and  most emotional scenes of the franchise. Loki is perfect, stealing every scene he is in. Jane is used properly and Hemsworth has never looked better. This movie does not have the ambitions to be great, but it is a lot of fun, sometimes that’s all I need.

Captain America: The First Avenger

Ok, I do not like origin stories, even the great ones like Iron Man or Deadpool. I find them boring. That’s just my opinion. This movie is good, the acting is good, the action is good, the story is interesting enough to not fall asleep while watching it. You see what’s the problem? Good is just not enough to get me invested in a movie. The relationship Cap has with Peggy is good, but pointless in the long run, cause he’s gonna wake up in the future anyway. The relationship with Bucky is however the high point of this movie. In cap’s storyline Bucky is a major player and it is nice to see how it began. This movie is my husband’s favourite and we watched it many times together, maybe that’s what keeps me from ranking it any lower.

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movie challenge

Recently I realized that I was watching the same few films over and over. Every time  I watch a film, I either watch it a few times over or I watch all of them if it is part of a franchise. Then it takes me a long time to watch something different, I get so caught up in the world the film created I don’t want to leave it. This of course holds me back from exploring different movies, so I created this movie challenge. I’ll probably won’t watch the movies chronologically. Feel free to do this challenge with me If you like.

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