August

August smells like the sun and tastes like regret

August talks loudly, but has nothing new to say

August punches me in the gut and covers my bruise with a sunflower

6:30

It’s half past six

the sun is already up,

the birds are singing.

It’s half past six

you sit up next to me and say “hello mommy”

who knew life could be this great.

Fear

I’ve never felt fear like this,

not when I was trapped and the earth was spinning around me.

Not when I thought her heart stopped beating in my womb.

Not when my lungs were filling up with water.

What i fear now is greater

because it hasn’t happened yet,

because maybe it never will

because what i fear most is the fear i could one day feel.

mad

The corners of my mind are empty,

there’s nothing to fear anymore.

Is this how a mad man feels?

Weightless and free.

I thought I was wrong, spiraling in the night,

but maybe it was you who was lost, blinded

by sunlight.

pebble

My love is a pebble thrown away

by your shaky hand.

My innocence covered in dirt,

hidden away in the grass.